Story: Home

Some people say home is where you come from. But I think it's a place you need to find, like it scattered and you pick pieces of it along the way."

- Unknown

My home is the house I live in, but if you want to know a more in-depth meaning or where I feel I belong, then I have none.

Even if my family and descendants are deeply rooted in Mexico, I'm not from there, not fully at least, so my home isn't there. Although I was born in America, nothing ties me down to this country besides my birth here and living here the majority of my life. It rarely feel like home. Much of it has to do with being raised by a family with different culture and values from those of America. When I look at my reflection in the water or mirror I'm reminded of what I look like. Not American, even if I was born here. I'm different in appearance and culturally. The funny thing is sometimes I don't look Hispanic to my own culture or other cultures. Having my Vietnamese friend tell me she thought I was Japanese when she first met me and became my friend, left me to wonder about my appearance every now and then. Others of Asian decent confuse me as well, and I often have to look at myself to remind myself, "I'm American because I was born here. Hispanic because my family and decedents are from Mexico. And I look Asian because of my mom's eyes." Over all, I can't easily be tied down to any place or categorized by ethnicity. 

So I don't have a home...but... I can say that I have pieces of a home. People and moments make up these pieces.

Sometimes when it rains I feel a part of Home. It's calming times and even though the rain is cold, when I look up to the gray sky, I'm reminded that just like days not everyone is perfect. It's what you make it to be, either good or bad. Maybe that's why I don't mind the rain as much, it's probably why I love it sometimes. I guess that's why it's a part of Home. Rainy days are comforting at times. Just to be able to look out the window and see raindrops slide down glass, it gives me a good enough reason to stop for a moment and be calm and ignore the world around me, if only for a second. 

At Nights I feel I can let go and relax, just be myself. That even though things are ending; somewhere else they are starting. "So why shouldn't I be able to continue?" that's what I think sometimes anyways. Night is feeling tomorrow could be better, another night to come. I can rebel against sleep and feel alive sometimes too. When the moon is the only light I need to get a glass of water or tea. I can look up at the stars and smile feeling like I may be a one single person, but I can be as bright as the rest, if not more. 

Family and friends are many pieces, scattered in different places and by different languages. I think they are the closest Home I have right now. With my family, I'm comforted and accepted no matter what, because the love a family can give is all you sometimes need. You have something and someone to come back to if you stray too far or get lost. At least for me, I feel I can say this. With friends, I can explore and venture out into the world. But with both I can laugh and cry, because during these times they are my Home. I'll admit some get torn, re-taped, and lost sometimes, but the ones I do get to keep are parts of Home I won't easily let go of or let down. These pieces continue to grow in number as I move forward. One day I'll fully put together all the pieces and find Home. 

"It's weird how something so simple represents so much."   

- Unknown

Teaser!!!

So I've updated the website and it has a new layout over all, plus I added new images! Now I've decided to try my best and update it with new images at least 2 times a monthㅇㅇㅇ There are some that are still not on the web but are on Instagram so yeah~ I'll get those on there.

Anyways here's the teaser for random work I'll be putting up on the web soon!

Can you guess what the random images are????ㅋㅋ

(P.s. I think I might make a few new pages in the future for 'other' things....)

Just For Fun

Done with editing a few photos I did for fun with my sis and a friend. It was just to get out, do something, n get that creativity going~ㅋㅋ

Summer Break (Update)

I just recently got out and about with a friend and photographed downtown. I got some decent images too!

(I'll post them later!)

Anyways~ here's a preview of some!

P.s. ....some are already on Instagram... so check for them!ㅋㅋ

http://instagram.com/photographer_ku

Still Here (Up Date)

I've been working on ideas for photoshoots I want to do. So far I've got three main ideas, two of which have been planned out and are ready to be arranged so I'll be making time for them soon!

I've also added some new images on my website but it still looks bare....(guess I'll have to shoot moreㅋㅋ) Also, I bought some film for my Fuji Instax and have been using it during the summer.

What do you think? 

(P.s. ....they are in color but I'm going to let you guess the colorsㅋㅋ)

Little Things

There are many parts of life we miss everyday, from the time we wake up to the time we sleep. We often loose ourselves in the everyday routine and what once had magic has dust. Everything we see, we tend to not see anymore.

The little things, is a series that I started without even actually knowing it. It's amazing how little things can be so interesting when you open your mind. They can also show little by little how you are as a person. I think it's important to pay attention to the little things in life every once in a while, we never really know how long we'll be able to do them. They can also help guide is in finding where we are in life and how much you've grown.

I don't think I'll ever stop documenting the little things as long as I have some form of camera! 

(p.s. Sarah told me I remind her of William Eggleston's work~! I think I'm doing things right???...but in my own way... ㅋㅋ)

Face#3

Long Shoot!!!

The photoshoot started at 5pm and we officially ended at 10:54pm. Four models were reserved for this session, though only three were able to make it. In this session we were only able to get two paper faces and one painted. We had trouble with lighting since the battery wasn't charged. The prepping for each model took about 1hr and we only got 30 of shoot time for each model, but thanks to that lunch break we had during it we were able to get through it in the end. The set up ended being a little different since we were on location rather than on studio, but it all worked in the end.

So all I can really say is that I have one more image to take before the series can be completed! Please look forward to it.

Teasers Coming Soon~!

Note: The series has a grungy look to it and is a little dark. It's a series that is meant to be in both color and B&W, I will reveal the color version first (surprise!).

(I don't expect everyone to love it, but constructive feedback is always welcomed.)